about me
PLEASE NOTE... THIS HASN'T BEEN UPDATED IN A VERY LONG TIME... I WILL UPDATE IT SOON. THANKS. 12/12/07 just the facts man... just the facts.
this is my random as hell about me or statistical facts page. i'm a bit less paranoid now but i'm still omitting things anyway... you never know who your stalkers might be. so here goes:
- i never capitalize my letters
- i do this on purpose because its aesthetically pleasing to me
- i'm a mother of 2 boys
- i had my first child when i was 21 and my second when i was 29
- i am tattooed over a good 1/2 or more of my body
- i'm sort of crazy and not always in a good way
- i used to write a lot of poetry but not anymore
- i am most inspired when my life is going horribly wrong
- i've been married two times
- i've cheated on 2 of my loves
- i regret both instances and wish i hadn't done it
- i don't believe the old adage: once a cheater always a cheater
- i believe in free will and personal responsibility
- i love warm weather
- i hate living in a state where it snows
- i'm an exhibitionist
- i love being naked
- i'm vain and sometimes huberistic
- i don't deny being vain but i know it's not a great aspect of my personality
- sometimes i really don't like myself simply based on the above statement
- i was once a cheerleader in high school
- my favorite color is green
- i swear like a sailor
- i trust very few people and will not hesitate to cut people off if i know they've harmed me
- i don't have many female friends
- i love my friends as if they were family
- i hate my sister 1 with a passion
- i will never talk to her again if i can help it
- i love my brother 1 with a fierceness which transcends language
- i would die for my husband, children, or brother 1
- i have 4 brothers and 2 sisters
- i'm the oldest of all my siblings
- i hate my mother with a passion, which (as of yet) is unparalleled
- i have issues with trust, honesty, and love
- i'm learning as i grow older that maybe i don't really hate anyone...
- i sometimes don't eat... on purpose
- i have never had an eating disorder though
- i always remember my bad dreams and rarely my good ones
- i do drugs on fridays but only on fridays and even then not EVERY friday
- my drug of choice is ecstasy even though' i'm well aware of the holes it pokes in my brain
- i haven't done illegal drugs since 11/11/05
- my family has a history of mental illness, alcoholism, and domestic violence
- i don't think that these facts are unusual in our society
- i like myself on most days
- i think i look more and more like my mother as i grow older
- this disturbs me on so many levels
- i once had breast implants for 11 months
- i hated everything about them, cried for 6 of the months, decided to remove them, and am glad they are gone
- i learned to love my body AS IS through that experience
- i will likely never have any other plastic surgery
- i don't cook too often and thusly my family eats out most meals
- i often don't think i'm a good mother but i couldn't tell you why i feel that way
- my favorite number is 8
- i like that number because it has no end
- i used to read a lot of books before i had children
- i want to be a racecar driver when i grow up
- i hope to never grow up
- i often feel like a soccer mom but i have lots of tattoos which negates this image
- i like the contradiction of those images
- i enjoy being the center of attention
- i'm loud, boisterous, and mildly obnoxious when drinking
- i cry a lot... often for reasons i cannot explain with an origin i do not understand
- i love my life as it is now
- i have a dog who is a pitbull/rotweiler mix (3/4 and 1/4, respectively)
- he's the most awesome dog i've ever had
- i have another dog who is a boston terrier and a bit psychotic but i love him anyway
- i love diamonds and own a few
- my favorite flowers are daisies
- my second favorite being red roses
- my third favorite being orchids
- i will never live in a trailer park or a ranch style home
- saltine crackers are my favorite snack in the whole world
- i love candy and eat it almost everyday
- i like to watch porn where the woman is subservient and submissive
- i love gangster movies
- i once wanted to be a secondary english teacher
- then i realized i didn't like kids enough
- i want to travel the world before i die
- i am a optimist trapped in the mind of a fatalist
- i am agnostic but i am constantly searching for enlightenment and proof of a god... any god
- i always present myself as confident even when i'm not feelin' it
- i enjoy sex a lot and have learned my body well enough to climax each and every time
- i also like anal sex with my husband... i've never really liked it with anyone else
- i love sappy mainstream movies as well as raunchy porn
- i enjoy the pain of a tattoo and think that it's the biggest part of the reason i get them
- the longest i've ever sat for a tattoo was 8 hours and it was for the outlines of the dragons on my back
- i will NEVER sit that long for a tattoo again
- i hate the word "tat" and i internally scoff at those that say it even tho' i feel like an asshole for doing it
- i'm a bit of a purse/tattoo/jeans snob
- this is not the end of the list... i'm just pausing for now...
if you want to know more about me... keep reading...
i have this unquenchable need to confess my evil doings to any ears that will hear them. i need to confess it over and over again... the purpose of this is still very unclear to me. i don't know what i'm searching for... i don't know who's forgiveness i'm craving.
i guess maybe i'm looking for reassurance that i'm not a bad person. reassurance that i'm ok even tho' i did this terrible thing.
i don't know what my problem is.
husband has forgiven me yet i still feel the need to confess my sins to any ears that have not heard it. i want people to know that i'm a bad person and see if they still stick by me once they've found me out. i guess. i dunno. it's all so confusing and painful to go over and over again in my mind.
i think too much. i know this... i've been told this... but i have this insane desire to understand all there is to understand about myself and why i do the things i do. i need to understand and analyze all the things that make me... me.
lame.
ABOUT ME
- Name: n (last name omitted)
- Birthday: september 21st 1972
- Birthplace: st. michael's hospital - milwaukee, wi
- Current Location: lost
- Eye Color: green
- Hair Color: reddish brown
- Height: 5'1"
- Right Handed or Left Handed: right
- Your Heritage: mostly german with some polish thrown in to screw everything up
- The Shoes You Wore Today: haven't worn any yet but i intend to wear my black knee high 3" heeled boots
- Your Weakness: buying shoes... lots of shoes
- Your Fears: losing the ones i love
- Your Perfect Pizza: thick crust with cheese
- Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
- Thoughts First Waking Up: take your pill
- Your Best Physical Feature: i've been told my eyes...
- Your Bedtime: anywhere between 9pm and 1am unless it's a friday
- Your Most Missed Memory: i don't have any
- Pepsi or Coke: coke of course!
- McDonalds or Burger King: neither
- Single or Group Dates: both
- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: yuck... neither
- Chocolate or Vanilla: i can't believe that's even a question! chocolate of course!
- Cappuccino or Coffee: neither
- Do you Smoke: nope... never smoked cigs and never will... gross!
- Do you Swear: oh for fuck's sake... of course
- Do you Sing: alone in the car or shower or for the benefit of my children
- Do you Shower Daily: yes, unless it's a pajama saturday
- Have you Been in Love: yup, currently
- Do you want to go to College: sometimes
- Do you want to get Married: already am
- Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
- Do you think you are Attractive: for the most part but i have my flaws
- Are you a Health Freak: not the last time i checked
- Do you get along with your Parents: most of them
- Do you like Thunderstorms: indeed
- Do you play an Instrument: does the skin flute count... hahah... no, i don't
- In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: absolutely
- In the past month have you Smoked: nope
- In the past month have you been on Drugs: yes, of the illegal variety
- In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes, with my husband
- In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes indeed
- In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: ugh... no
- In the past month have you eaten Sushi: nope, never have
- In the past month have you been on Stage: no
- In the past month have you been Dumped: not that i'm aware of
- In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no way... it's 11 degrees here!
- In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
- Ever been Drunk: of course
- Ever been called a Tease: yes
- Ever been Beaten up: not really
- Ever Shoplifted: are you a cop?
- How do you want to Die:painlessly
- What do you want to be when you Grow Up: happy and content
- What country would you most like to Visit: can't decide
- Favourite Eye Color: green
- Favourite Hair Color: on boys... dark. on girls... red. on strippers... blonde.
- Short or Long Hair: on boys... shaved. on girls... med to long. on strippers... long.
- Height: whateves
- Best Clothing Brand: northern athletik and levi's
- Number of Drugs I have taken: i'm not sure
- Number of CDs I own: a few hundred
- Number of Piercings: 4... 2 in each ear
- Number of Tattoos: i guess around 14 but some have morphed together so i'm not sure
- Number of things in my Past I Regret: being a cheater
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